So, I realize that my last few posts have hinted a bit at bitterness. I guess that's true in some respect. But I actually think I'm handling things pretty well considering the circumstances. I'm just SO SO thankful that I have a testimony of the Atonement and the Plan of Happiness, because that has been my rock through all of this. What do people do with their broken hearts when they don't have the gospel? I don't know how they do it.
So, since for the last two years I really haven't been very social, now I am trying to force myself to get back out there and socialize. It's harder than it looks! It's funny because I am an extrovert and I love being around people and I'm not shy in the slightest (unless I have a crush on someone... then I'm shy and it's seriously bizarre), but I guess I'm just so used to waiting for people to come to me now, that it's kind of a big adjustment for me. P.S. sorry about that total run-on on sentence. Anyways, but I'm trying and that's what counts. It's hard to do when you don't have a wingman very often. Yeah, I told you, all of my girlfriends are either married or have serious boyfriends and couldn't care less about socializing. *Deep emotional sigh*
Anywho... just a disclaimer: I am in NO hurry to be dating again or to join my friends on the marriage bandwagon. I just know that I'm going to have to get back into the swing of things if I ever do want something to happen. The way I see it, I have PLENTY of time. Seriously. I'm young and I'll only be in this stage of my life once, and for once in my life I'd like to just BE young instead of being forced or feeling forced to grow up prematurely. (Ha now that I've said that I've probably cursed myself. It's called a cruel irony...)
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