Foot in Mouth, kinda.

"Only those who have personality and emotions know what it means to want to escape from these things." - T.S. Eliot

My mother raised me to be a realistic person, and I love her for that. Perhaps I take this to the extreme sometimes, though. For instance, I am pretty much physically incapable of concealing my feelings. Whatever I am feeling at any given time is usually perfectly evident to everyone around me. I guess part of the reason why is that I don't like to be fake. I am also a really terrible liar and pretty much avoid that option at all costs. So, I just do what feels natural and real to me. Unfortunately, this causes problems when I am being irrational.
This weekend I really, really wished that I could hide my feelings, but I couldn't. Instead I tried to just be quiet because the emotion I was feeling was an overreaction that fueled aggravation/frustrated confusion, and yes, it was directed to a person that I care about. Anyways, I tried to be quiet because I knew that, in my irrationality, I would probably say something stupid or rude if I opened my mouth. Unfortunately, this awful attempt to cover up my irrational (well... I guess irrational is not really the right word for it... seeing as how I had a legit reason for feeling the way I did... it was just something that I need a little bit of time to get over/cool down about) feelings did not go unnoticed and I probably hurt someone's feelings who didn't know that they hurt mine.
It's vicious, I know. And I feel like absolute crap about it. Where do I draw the line between being real (which is a very large part of what makes me, ME - and I love that) and protecting the feelings of other people through small lies? I don't know if there is a place to draw that line for me... but I guess I should figure that out. Soon.
The moral of the story is... don't emotionally confuse me unless you want to deal with all of the aforementioned mess. Haha.